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Back to school season has officially arrived, and summer is officially ending. Mixed emotions flow through the air. Excitement. Nerves. Curiosity. These feelings are completely normal. I’ve always experienced mixed emotions as I think about school starting again, but there’s one enormous feeling that lingers in my head. ANXIETY.

Anxiety has become very common in my generation. We, as teenagers, are already going through puberty and are trying to mature. Teenage life is tough to begin with, and anxiety only makes it worse. In order to help ease the anxiety that teenagers (like me) face, we have to learn how to cope. Going back to school is a major trigger for many teens, and I personally have experienced intense anxiety during this season. Although I can’t make all of our anxieties go away, I can give you my 5 best tips on how to cope with these feelings.

Keep in mind that all of these tips are based off of my personal experience. Most of these tips are ways that you can take action and advocate for yourself. I’ve worked with administrations from public schools, private schools, and charter schools. Every school is different, so your school’s accommodations may not be the same as the schools I have been to. I encourage you to try all of the 5 tips I will give, and I suggest that you approach your school’s administration to find out more specific details on their particular accommodation policy.

1. Prep

Practice your morning routine a few days before school starts. Go through the motions of a typical school day morning. Be sure to get a good night’s sleep, and DO NOT miss breakfast. This will help you get back into the flow of things much smoother than trying to jump start on the first day of school. ***If possible, check out the school campus to get familiar with the locations of the classrooms. This will bring a sense of comfort, and being comfortable can help reduce anxiety.

2. Find a Friend

On the first days of school, I recommend looking around at the other students. Try to reach out to somebody who looks like you, anxious. Connect with that person and try to help each other out with the anxieties you both are facing.

3. Fidget Toys

During class, I used to bring fidget toys such as squish balls and fidget spinners to school. If I felt anxious during class, I would play with a fidget toy in my desk to help calm me. I personally recommend purchasing a spin ring. I wear a ring on my finger everyday and it has a layer on it that can spin. Nobody notices I am trying to calm myself at all. It blends in perfectly. It gives something for my hands to do when I am fidgety during lectures.

4. Eat Lunch

You must refuel to get through the rest of your school day comfortably. Of course, I encourage you to try having lunch with other people, but it is not necessary. I didn’t really have friends, so I ate lunch in an open classroom. I sat comfortably, eating my lunch alone. I was productive though. I did homework and listened to music. Do what you are most comfortable with, but it is critical that you eat something to refuel.

5. Ask for Help

If you are struggling to cope with your anxiety, ask for help. This is not a sign of weakness. It shows courage that you can share your struggles with someone and put in effort to help yourself.

Focus on Progress!

Anxiety is a distressing feeling, but it can be managed. Do not give up if things don’t start off exactly how you want this school year. Focus on making progress! If you want to take this a step further, I have a book that goes more in-depth on dealing with anxiety, AND I am giving away a free eBook download today! Click the button below to get your free download!

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Back to School Anxiety
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Mental Health Journey | Behind the Story of “The Mask”

“The Mask” Concept- Mental Health

“The Mask” is a very special chapter, and it is by far one of my most favorite songs I’ve written. It’s concept is very close to my heart, and it’s message is relatable on so many levels, not just mental health. The Mask is all about reflection. We tend to put up internal masks when we feel certain emotion. I put up my internal mask when I am feeling anxious, fear, and confusion. You may put up your mask based on different feelings, but we all have a mask that comes out from time to time. Reflecting on the times when I’ve put up my mask can be heart breaking. I know exactly why I put up my mask on every occasion that I did, but I have to realize that I simply don’t need it. It is my way of hiding, and I’ve come to the point where I need to stop hiding. I need to be me. I need to face obstacles head on and let my mask fade away. My mask saved me from embarrassment, and it kept me feeling in control. I have learned how to do those things on my own now. My mask was a great tool, but I’m ready purely be me and face the world. So are you.


I wrote The Mask as a reflection song. I looked back at the period of time in my life that is discussed in Chapter 2, and I wrote the song based off of the feeling and emotion that went into that chapter. It was not an after thought. I was able to write this song because I could give myself more time to truly express how I felt during that period in my life. I enjoyed the process of writing this song, and I enjoyed the process of writing this chapter. It opened my eyes to learn more about myself and how I can relate to other people who tend to put up a mask like me.

We’ve all got masks. It’s time to rip them up and tear them off!


Go read Chapter 2 “The Mask” from Brain XP the Book!

Go listen to Song 2 “The Mask” from Brain XP the Soundtrack!

Watch “The Mask” music video here:

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Hey, if you want to take a step further towards overcoming fear in your life, check out my free eBook I put together specifically for my readers.

I discuss how I overcame my own fears. Download link is right below! Don’t miss this one!

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Mental Health Journey | Behind the Story of “Get To Know Me”

Behind The Story – Brain XP

Writing my autobiography Brain XP the Book and creating my album Brain XP the Soundtrack was an adventure. It was exciting, therapeutic, and it was a fantastic journey through my struggle with mental health.  It unquestionably was not easy at times. I learned so much from the whole process, and it would not be complete if I didn’t share my experience. I will walk you through my painful experiences and how I used my coping strategies to get through them. There is a deeper meaning to each chapter and each song. Throughout the next ten weeks, I will break down and express these true deeper meanings by bringing to you my series BTS: Brain XP.  I will take you chapter by chapter and song by song Behind the Story of Brain XP.

Get To Know Me

My first chapter “Get To Know Me” is the welcome to my book, and my song “Get To Know Me” is the welcome to my album. To be honest, I was misunderstood a lot growing up. People saw my surface, but they didn’t get to know the real me. Because other people didn’t truly know me, I started to lose sight of my own life, my personal goals, and my own dreams. I barely recognized myself. I wrote “Get To Know Me” as a way of reminding myself precisely who I am. It gives other people a reason to stop judging and learn more about the people around them. We are not all the people we’ve been made out to be.

Mental Health

**Mental health is an important topic that cannot be ignored. I’m using my experiences of creating Brain XP to help you recognize that you or someone around you may need help. DO NOT IGNORE your symptoms. I am here to give you hope and remind you that you have a purpose and are meant to be here!**

Here are some mental health links that may help you 🙂 (especially for teens)

Suicide Prevention Lifeline


OK 2 Talk

Active Minds

Strong 365

Mental Health Album Brain XP
Get To Know Me is the first song and chapter in my album and autobiography titled Brain XP.
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Brain XP the Book and Soundtrack Now Available!

Brain XP the Book and Brain XP the Soundtrack are now available at all digital retailers!

To buy now:

Brain XP the Book (on both Kindle and paperback):

Brain XP the Soundtrack:

iTunes: Brain XP by Christine XP


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Living in fear feels horrible. It breaks down your walls and puts you in a vulnerable position. Your guard is no longer existent, which exposes you to greater possibilities of getting hurt (emotionally and physically). I experienced this quite frequently as I worked through my psychotic symptoms. I feared every single day, every single night. I was scared the demons that haunted me would appear or talk to me or hurt me. I feared going to school because I didn’t want my friends to see one of my “episodes” with the demons happen. I feared that my own good decision making would no longer be important because the demons had all my control. Although I was scared (and had every right to be), I never quit, and I never gave up. I went to school every day, made my own decisions every day, and learned to manage my symptoms. It wasn’t easy, but I forced myself to step outside of my comfort zone in order to get better. You can too. I still have ups and downs, but my security is not in jeopardy. With effort, your fear can slowly reduce. Just remember it takes time, but know you are not alone.

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Confidence and self worth are essential in order to feel beautiful. I already know that every single one of you is beautiful (there is no doubt in my mind about that), but feeling that way is not always as easy as it sounds. When I was in 7th grade, I struggled with accepting myself. I once told my teacher that I hated myself, and I could tell that he was very upset to hear that. That was how I felt, though. I didn’t want to be myself because I didn’t feel like I was beautiful both inside and outside. As time went on, I learned the value of confidence and self worth. I may not be the most confident person in the world. I may not realize the importance of self worth at every moment, but I can acknowledge that I am a child of God who deserves respect from everyone which includes myself. Learning to love yourself and respecting yourself will make a huge difference in feeling beautiful. Those were the first steps I took to get me to the place I am today. I even took my experiences of struggling with feeling beautiful and loving myself, and I wrote a song about it. It’s called Beautifull Of Love. We are beautiful and we are all full of love. That is the message I want to send. Take it from me, I went from hating everything about myself to finding the beauty in myself every day. It’s possible and it’s important. When the song comes out in a few months, come back to this blog and see how far you’ve come. Little steps can create huge progress!

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Christine Marie Frey School Presentation Booking Opportunities

Author and recording artist Christine Marie Frey (artist name Christine XP) created Brain XP as an outlet to build a community for teens and young adults who have been affected by mental illness, along with their friends, families, and support networks (churches, schools, neighborhoods). With the forthcoming release of the book and album on April 27th, Christine is now available for speaking and performance opportunities nationally. Hear the vision for Brain XP in Christine’s own words.

For booking info, please call (858)367-3366 or send an email to

Video produced and directed by Billy Dorsey for thebridgelife

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Introducing Brain XP



One of the most important things to remember in life is that everybody needs help sometimes. When I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I refused any help that came my way. I didn’t want help from my parents, my teachers, or even my friends. I wanted help from a teenager who could understand what I was going through. I needed somebody who fought similar battles that I did to say there’s light at the end of the tunnel. I had a hard time just believing what my parents or teachers or friends would say because they didn’t truly understand the things that happened in my mind.

I researched for months trying to find reading material from a teenager like me, who could explain how they managed and coped in everyday life. I tried finding videos on YouTube and mental health related music from a teenager like me with messages that I could hear and feel less crazy. Sadly, I could not find anything that fit for me.

That was when Brain XP was born. Brain XP is the brand I am building, which stands for Brain Expanded. Every single person living with a mental disorder has Brain XP because our brains ARE truly E X P A N D E D! Our brains function in a completely unique and special way that others people’s brains do not. We are especially creative, insightful, empathetic and the list goes on. Brain XP is a community for all people especially teens who are struggling with their mental health as well as all of their supporters.

I could not find that certain voice I was searching for, so I had to step up and BE that voice. I want to be the person that will help other teenagers who are struggling with mental health issues. One of the ways I have found to cope is to write – I write lyrics and music. My most recent song is called “The Mask” and it sends the message that we do not need our internal masks to be put up in order to hide from the world or to protect ourselves. You are strong enough to face the world as the amazing person that you are. Go listen to “The Mask” by me (Christine XP) right now! (It’s on iTunes, Amazon, Spotify, etc.)

And I just finished writing a story about my life – what is has been like to cope with the day to day struggles of having a mental illness from age 12 to now, 16. In addition, I have recorded an album made up of my original songs. Each song corresponds to one of the chapters in my book. BRAIN XP the book & BRAIN XP the soundtrack with both be released on April 27, 2018.

Connect with me through social media with the username brainxpproject on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, and Snapchat! For more information, visit the Brain XP website! Links are below.

This is my way of providing help for the tons and tons of struggling teens out there. I am here. I am your friend. Together, we are Brain XP. ………………..Christine XP

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New Year’s Resolutions

New Year’s Resolutions

​I’ve always loved the holiday season. One of my favorite things to do each year is make my list of New Year’s Resolutions. I am a planner. I like to write all of my ideas down on paper or type them into my phone. I’m also a goal setter. I make short term goals and long term goals, and I do my best to keep them realistic.
​In recent years, I have come to really focus my New Year’s Resolutions on health and happiness. I feel those two things are extremely important and can always be worked on.
​I want to be physically healthy and mentally healthy. I plan to exercise more and use my coping skills more wisely.
​I always take it a step further, though. I know myself, and I won’t follow through with my goals unless they are completely mapped out. I try to be as specific as possible without being unrealistic.
​For my first New Year’s Resolution, I plan to exercise for an hour on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
​For my second New Year’s Resolution, I plan to utilize my coping skill of playing guitar at least every other day.
​Happiness seems like a silly topic to focus on as a goal, but I have been very successful in mapping out ways to help keep me happy. This year I want to help others more, and I also want to find a good balance between social time and alone time.
​For my third New Year’s Resolution, I plan to release an autobiography that will help struggling teenagers find comfort as they go through their individual journeys of life.
​For my last New Year’s Resolution, I plan to meet up with friends at least once a week.
​Kicking off the year with a good start is essential, but planning and setting goals can still be done at any time throughout the year. Forming good habits can be tough, but it too can be done. Remember that we all have different journeys, but helping each other reach our goals is the most important piece to this puzzle. I’m your friend, and I am more than happy to help you, so don’t be afraid to lend your helping hand to somebody else.